My Adrenaline Rushes: Gift or Curse

Well it started out like this i was ten years old i had a crazy nightmare like this: I was standing alone in a dark street when a dark figure came out and said if i could beat him in a duel i could live but if i failed then he would kill me his voice was like a thousand wispers all at once i remember it being like one of those third-person type of dream where it was like i was watching myself in a movie.

Anyway i saw myself get this smug look like ive made before but this look was pure evil looking and i said very well i remember thinking okay, duel means swords but instead i seen myself raise my hands and i yelled what sounded like a battle cry and in my right hand a ball of fire appeared, in my left hand a ball of electricity formed and right in front of his/my face a ball of water appeared then things got weird a shroud of what looked like darkness covered me so i could not see or hear myself then out of nowhere the ball of fire flew out of the dark and slammed into the shadowy guys chest then almost as soon as the fire ball had taken its course the ball of electricity came out of nowhere hitting the shadowman again knocking him next to me and last (or so i thought) the water hit the guy from behind then he screamed SHOW YOURSELF COWARD!!! then all of a sudden i appeared your the coward death! i had said then i saw myself raise both my hands and what looked like pure-white light materialized in between my hands i threw it at the shadowy guy and he exploded into darkness

i woke up with a start and when i did there was the shadowman hovering above me i started freaking out but when i blinked he was gone ever since then i can sense death i don't know how that is possible but I counted it as a gift at first but after a year of it i felt down, paler, and thinner also ever since then sometimes if i get into Adrenaline Rush i blackout every time but sometimes its happened about 7 times ill receive some kind of gift only when i hurt myself bad during the Rush i have received increased speed, increased strength, i have gotten amazing vision from one, increased hearing, Pyrokinesis, Aquakinesis, Tenebrikinesis (i can control fire, water, and darkness) and though i dont have Electrokinesis, Adurokinesis, much less as powerful as the dream showed so what was it? showing the future? was that figure really death? I just don't know whats going on with me i feel different i dont feel human am i crazy? Please Comment, i need help!