Artificial Fear

All my life I have had to deal with the paranormal, and while it does fascinate me, it also scares the shit out of me. I am religious and I hate the idea of hell. I do believe in God as I have had experiences where I do believe he was involved. Most of my stories are serious and rarely funny/fun to experience. I do have some mental issues but no one knows about them besides me and the doctor. I can conceal them pretty well unless I do what the doctor likes to call "slipping". When I "slip", I become cruel and extremely unpleasant. The weird part is, when I slip I became unaware of my actions. It can happen at any time and it doesn't have to be provoked. Thank God I have never slipped in public. The only people who have witnessed me slip are two girls, my bestfriend and both of my sisters. Tabitha, Coliegh, Meghan, Kaylee, and Tre'von. All at different times. The incident where Meghan witnessed me slip was the most peculiar but I will probably post that story later. Anyways, I'm from Manning, SC and I hate it here. I am of German decent and my family is a very racist one. I love to argue and I'm very damn good at it. I get along with others easily unless I don't like them. I am an honors student in Manning High School. I love video games, puzzles, and magic/illusions.